This morning, I was all set to go for my run! Even though I stayed up late last night finishing up some personal work, I was up by 5.30 this morning and ready to hit the road. By the time I brushed my teeth I came back to find Chittu woken up, wailing and wanting to sleep on my lap!
Yes there are the unbeatable joys of parenting. But sometimes its hard to decide to leave a crying child and head out. I find it difficult to fit in my gym sessions/ runs/ walks with the Scientist being away. It tugs my heart to leave my child at home with Maami, protesting at my leaving the house. He very clearly expresses his dismay at my leaving the house by saying: "Amma gymikku poga vendam" (meaning amma should not go to the gym) the moment I get dressed in track pants.
Despite his protests, I made it to body combat class yesterday. And on some mornings I sneak out of bed for an early run! With my improving fitness levels, I find that I need to exercise twice a day to keep up weight loss. Also with my recent ulcer development, I have increased my calorie intake to about 1600-1700 calories a day. Carbohydrate intake has also increased, and therefore I must exercise if i want to lose weight. Already I hardly find my weight changing, and am a bit concerned, even though I fit into smaller clothes!
Sometimes, I really get bogged down with the amount of time and hard work that its taking me to melt the fat. Somedays I pat myself on the back for taking control of my body and doing so many good things with it! Who would have ever thought I run 6 kilometres just because I'm fit and I can do it?
But honestly today is one of those days I feel like whining and weeping because its so so hard to actually lose weight! I am trying my level best despite my constraints of being a mother, a wife and a professional. I am certainly not going to reach goal weight of 67 kilos by August 21, 2012. I have lost 23 kilos in 22 months. May be it is going to take me 10 more months to lose the next 10 kilos? But I'm going to keep at this!