Statutory Warning: Ranty post ahead!

Ok, now I’m really battling the funk. I just don’t. feel. up. to. anything. Period.

My feet are swelling again. And when I get up from my chair at work, the stiffness in my ankles hurts me, and my knees too! I figured that rice causes my feet to swell, and am staying off rice, for the most part. But the more I realize it’s doing me harm, the more I want to eat it! Self destructive, eh?

Last evening I was dying to get home from work, as my mind was refusing to focus on work, and my body felt very tired. I went home and ate some rice ( about ¼ cup) with liquidy kootu (spiced dal with vegetables) that was left over from lunch and a banana. Whether those carbs are making me retain water in my feet, I don’t know. The sugar made me feel better. Then I had some watermelon, and then for dinner a cucumber with hummus, yogurt and a teensy bit of upma I had made for the Scientist! I also had a cup of hot chocolate before bedtime!

I had a personal workout session this morning which focused on arms and back, and I feel like my arms will fall off right now! Breakfast was a bowl of oats with a teaspoon of peanut butter and sugar free apricot preserve. I estimate my calorie consumption to about 1400-1500 calories per day, with intense  60 minute exercise sessions atleast 5 times a week. I don’t know if I am eating too little. But anymore than this I end up not losing weight at all, or in fact I gain weight! Or I am eating wrong? I possibly need professional help!

I feel totally fagged out, and not in a mood for office work. Or it the summer? Or my hormones at play? That time of the month? I’m not sure what! I’m not feeling good!