I must admit I have been in the grey zone lately. Somedays, I wake up,do my stuff and feel good about where I have reached after all this hard work. Some days, I have moments of great self doubt, wonder whether the scale is moving at all and if ever I will lose all this extra baggage I am carrying. I think of crash dieting sometimes. But I know I cannot do it! Really, I cannot. Somedays I look at the round on my shoulders after all the body pump hours I've put in. Somedays, I cannot help but notice that my butt is far bigger than I'd like it to be. Some days, I pride in the halasana or the push up that I have become able to do. Some days, I am so embarassed that I have been on this final weight loss jounrey for over two years now and have not yet reached where I want to! I know I need some more discipline to shake the final kilos off. Half assing isn't working. I guess I need to get down to the real hard work!
I have only recently been able to stay off rice, considerably! I am starting to run again. There are quite a few running events I have lined up. That's the only way I'll actually run without feeling complacent. And this is my action plan, running apart:
- watch the rice, watch the rice, watch the rice!
- improve core strength - some planks please?
- journal (i have recently got back to journalling in a note book)
- first get under the 75 mark! smaller goals at a time?
I am planning a beach holiday in the last week of March! So do you think I'll be a lighter person by then? I really want to break out of this badly!